Wooo. Ok. So, I'm moving today. I turned on the power for the apt. Yay. Now I won't live in the dark. However... I don't know what the internet situation is. Soooooo, I might not be able to update as much for a while. Or will I? I have no idea.

Anyway, so there you go. Nothing else has happened since I last updated. I need some ice tea and I need to take a shower. The end.

Ok, so I was bored and did a search in myspace for just "Alisa"... there's 2616 Alisa's (I didn't look at all the profiles, of course). Here are the things I discovered:
A. A LOT of them had "uh lee suh" somewhere in their profile

B.
That this is the cutest thing I've ever seen. It makes me want to cry.

I'm really sleepy (just like those kitties). I want to nap. Maybe I will. I'm moving TOMORROW. I'm excited. I need to move my stuff into the living room. I can't wait until someday when I have money and I can buy curtains and things for my new room. I want purple walls and to paint my furniture green. Not like lime green or anything... but the color of my dresser.

I think the Hollywood sign is broken. This morning it looked like the bottom, right hand part of the H fell off or something. Maybe it's just obstructed. I don't know.

I had only 4 tables today but still made $20 after tip out. That's a good sign. It would have been better if ALL of my tables wouldn't have rounded DOWN on their tips, though. $6 on a $37 check is NOT 20%. Oh well, I'm still making more for less. Jim and I went to Johnnie's last night and I made him tip $4 on a $10 bill. I just don't think it's fair to take up someone's table and time for less than $2 a person (until, of course, it would be a BETTER tip for MORE than $2 per person. I think you all understand what I'm trying to say.)

According to tripod, I had over 10,000 page views yesterday. No freaking way. I want some PROOF.

My whole body is sore and I'm not sure why. I want that to stop, though.

For you, Katie Earle

Remember when that jerk Ryan Cabrera came into the MG? Well... he's come back 3 times since then. Once with Joe Simpson. And then... I found out the first time he was there (on VIP weekend) the guys he were sitting with... were.... THE KILLERS.

No freaking joke.

This is me when host girl told me "..... what? WHAT?"

This leads me to a couple questions. WHY were the Killers with Ryan Cabrera... and more importantly, WHY DIDN'T ANYONE EVER TELL ME THEY WERE THERE!?!?!?!

That Killers boy is so...cute.

I really want their album. I'm so dumb. I don't know why I haven't bought it when I love them so. I also want that Death Cab for Cutie album.

Speaking of music, radiohead is working on a new album. HOORAY!!!

I tried to go to the sprint store today to get my phone fixed, but hollywood is STUPID and I couldn't even find a place to park. So, I was going to go to Pasadena, but I kind of realized I'd have the same problem there (not to mention I'd have to wait forever), so i'm gonna have to make an appointment somewhere. For later.

I work tomorrow. Yay. I need money.

Ok, I have a completely pointless announcement:

I am going to grow my hair out... ish.

I'm not gonna have it LONG... but I'm gonna just not cut it for a while and see what happens. Presumably it will get longer. And that's the whole idea.

My phone is all messed up. It's awful. It was fine last night and then today in the morning it was acting kind of funny and around 2:30, the lcd screen just... disappeared. It reappeared for a couple minutes, just long enough for me to add Dustin to my speed dial. I can ONLY call people on my speed dial, unless I know the #. And since I only know 5 phone numbers tops (i lost the ability to memorize phone numbers when cell phones arrived), i really can't call anyone who isn't on my speed dial anyway. I went to the sprint store, but I'm gonna have to go to another sprint store to have it fixed. Boo.

My day has been very boring. I talked to stevie p online for a while... also ate some cookies... and did some laundry. Wooooooo.

I wish I had a life.

Man... it's been a weird night. Work was ok. I made $70. My tables were all pretty nice... but the checks were lower and I got like... 2 crappy ($4) tips. Oh well. I didn't make $600.

Anyway, after I left I listened to my voice mail... and jen left me a message telling me Vicki McCleary died. I was just like... WHAT?? I think my heart stopped for a second. Really. I couldn't believe it. Vicki was Jennica's mom... Jennica played Magenta in Rocky Horror with me... her mom was SM both years. She was so sweet.. and so YOUNG! Jen didn't know a lot of details... but.. I mean, I don't even know what to say. At first it was "Oh my God, I feel so bad for Jennica..." but then I slowly started to realize that *I* knew Vicki, too. I'm so detached from everything out here. It's not like I ONLY knew her as Jennica's mom... I mean, she was VICKI. I just feel so bad. It's so horrible. She was one of the nicest, coolest ladies I ever worked with, and she is going to be missed by SO many people.

Jennica JUST moved back to NYC, too. All these people in Canton knew before she did. :(

I came home to the empty apartment. I'm going to miss it here. I wrote "Mike Seaver was here" on the refrigerator. It was such a gloomy day.

It's been such a gloomy YEAR.

Man, I was so totally freaking out a few minutes ago. Kellee and Leona are moving out today.. which means it's gonna be me, my bed, my dresser, my stuff, and the computer left in the apartment for a while. Since Jim's gone I was thinking about the impending boredom without TV or other people... but at least I'd have the internet, right? Well.. when everyone was here, moving things out, Kevin unplugged the phone line... and the internet didn't work for HOURS. I called SBC and they were saying they couldn't get anyone to come out until Tuesday, and what would be the point in doing it on Tuesday when I HAVE to be gone on Thursday? So... I was resigned to a life of re-reading Harry potter, when I took a look at the cords and got it back! Yay! I would have lost it.

Earlier, when the internets were gone, Chloe and I took a nap, which was oh so cute, and then I sat there reading for a while. I'm gonna miss this little lady so much. She's just SO CUTE. Oh, I also downloaded some free ringtones off 2gforfree.com over my phone... I got THE LONGEST harry potter ringtone ever. And some Napoleon Dynamite ones, which I am only keeping until I can play them for Jim.

I have to work tonight. THANK GOD. Oh yeah, we got that apartment. Again, THANK GOD. I don't like working... but I need monies.

So, according to my tripod home page, my site has 1028 views YESTERDAY and over 30,000 so far this month. Could this possibly be TRUE? I mean, yes, maybe *I* contributed to like... 30 of those yesterday (I check my site compulsively... I don't know why), but really? Over 1000? You'd think there'd be more...comments. (This is NOT A PLUG to get more comments. I don't care right now.)

Chloe keeps jumping on my back and scratching it with her tiny, tiny claws of death. Every time I put her away in her room she looks at me with her big, kitty eyes and those are the times when I really hate her for making me feel bad. But if she keeps scratching my back up, I'm gonna look like I'm abused or something.

I dropped off the money, Dustin's application, and my pay stubs/copies of DL and SS card at the apartment place today. I HAVE to move by Thursday, so I'll be going SOMEWHERE... I just hope it's there.

Oh, also, so when Camey took me off the schedule for a week, I immediately put up a note saying I'd pick up shifts... and I forgot that I kind of needed Thursday off to move and picked up a shift. Great. Yeah....

I need to clean up today/start packing. Leona's almost DONE packing... including some of MY stuff which she mistakingly packed away as her own. I don't have a lot of stuff, so I definitely want to keep what I DO have.

I can't believe I've been here a year. You know what else I can't believe? How fast I learned the city. Or, alternatively, how slowly JIM learned the city. I know! JIM! MR. Directions! Seriously, though, I know SO MUCH MORE after one year than he knew after one year. I'm even wont to say that I know MORE than he knows now... although he would never agree with that. When I moved here he didn't even know Burbank and Glendale were in the valley. They may be the COOLEST part of the valley, but they're still there. Third coolest is, of course, North Hollywood, which is WHERE I WILL HOPEFULLY BE MOVING. The BEST part is that it's only a couple blocks away from the "subway"... which is AWESOME, even though I've never taken it. However, if I start making money, I plan to start taking dance classes at studio a dance in silver lake, which I would definitely want to take the metro to. Because... well, I could easily drive there, but I think taking the metro would make me feel like I live in NYC. Jeez, why don't I just move there already? All I do is complain about LA. Let me just say, Lauren Champlin, you aren't missing anything out here.

I'm gonna miss living with Kellee and Leona. I suddenly realized yesterday... why didn't Kellee and I just stay roommates? That would have been SOOOO much easier. Probably because they always thought Jim and I would be living together... even though I have told them a MILLION times that we are, like, NEVER going to live together. Unless we got married. And even then I don't know if I'd want to live with him, hahaha. But, anyway, yeah... jeez. I can't believe I'm going to be living with a gay republican. I can't believe there ARE such things as gay republicans. :) The only thing that would make it more absurd is if he was a gay republican who worked at planned parenthood. But, I love Dustin, even if he is a republican. ;)

I am so sad about that bus explosion near Dallas, with the old folks. It's easy to be sad about... pretty much everything... going on down south.

Ok, time to start packing/cleaning and watch "Ellen."

There was an earthquake today. I was about to sit down on the toilet backwards to be able to look in the mirror and put makeup on, but as i was sitting down, the earthquake caused me to fall off the toilet. I thought it was just me, but then Kellee yelled from the other room "did we just have an earthquake?" and yes... we did. TWO earthquakes.

I went to go look at this apartment after that, but it was sooo scary, I couldn't even bring myself to knock on the door. I stood outside the door, with my arm raised to knock... but then I looked around and decided to leave. It was so dirty and creepy. I'd be afraid EVERY DAY there. However, after that and calling a bunch of places, I went to another place, which i LOVED. It's a 2 bed/ 1.5 bath PLUS LOFT!!! I walked in and went "WOW!!!!" because of the spiral staircase and high ceilings right in front of the door. It's more expensive than I would have hoped ($1200), but maybe I can find another roommate and I'll live in the loft. I filled out the application and brought the other one to Dustin, and am bringing them back tomorrow. I hope we get this place. It was great.

So, i decided I don't want to hate my life any more than I already do, and the only way to do that AND work a second job is to be an extra. Leona's gonna see if she can get me on the Suite Life taping for Monday. It SHOULD be ok, but you never know.

I got my official rejection letter from the YAGMCB audition today. Oh well.... I guess. I'm kind of used to being rejected now. I'm really beginning to think I'm bad at performing and no one has ever been honest with me.

Jim is going out of town this weekend on a prayer retreat and he NEVER TOLD ME. When he called at like 9pm tonight I was like "do you work at 7:30 tomorrow?" and he said "yeah, 7:30-1, then I'm leaving." "where are you going?" "the prayer retreat at lake arrowhead" "WHAT?????" I was pretty... pissed. He was all "i don't have to answer to YOU! I don't need to tell you my schedule." and I was like "uh, I'm not asking for your schedule but it would be nice to know you're leaving the city for a few days." Then he said he thought he did tell me. Of course he didn't tell me. He never tells me anything. I told him whenever he "thinks" he's told me something, he hasn't, because he never tells me anything at all, but ALWAYS says "Oh. I thought I told you." Seriously. I always have to find stuff out from his BLOG. And he doesn't even update all that often. Isn't that PATHETIC? He makes me so angry.

Anyway, then he apologized for being mean again, and then he bought me ice cream. But then he said if he ever died I couldn't have kitty, which doesn't even make sense, since I love the cat soooo much and would give him the best home ever.

Kellee and Leona are/were really sick the last couple of days and I'm so afraid I'm next. I just WAS sick, though. Hopefully I had it first because I do NOT want to be sick again.

Ok, bed time.

Ugh. I worked for 5 hours. For the first 2 hours not a single table came in. And then when people DID start coming in, we had so many servers on that I only had 2 tables before they cut me. I made $10 in 5 hours.

Our managers are all "We ask for your patience. You don't want to come back here in 6 months to eat and see a line out the door and think 'i USED to work there...'" And that's true. I have no doubt that business is going to pick up (September is the worst month for restaurants of the year, not to mention the fact that we just opened)... and I'm sure that in a couple of weeks we'll be making money.

But what are we supposed to do NOW?

Everyone is starting to freak out. NONE of us are making money... I'm just one of the lucky people who have a lease expiring at the end of the month and can't afford a deposit for a new apartment. I thought getting a job at a new, better restaurant would be... BETTER. And the tips HAVE been better... but since I stand around for HOURS without any tables, it doesn't matter. I have $450 in the bank, $50 in my wallet, my emergency cash... and that's it. I can probably make $100 on Saturday, HOPEFULLY someone give'll me their Friday shift... but then... ugh. UGH UGH UGH.

And Jim was all "get a second job" and I PLAN on it... but that still doesn't help me now. God, if only I would have known. I would have only cut waaaay back at the OG and not quit.

This sucks. I don't know what to do.

I didn't even WANT to talk to Jim about it, because he's never really nice when it comes to me, and things I'm "supposed" to be doing, but I did, because he made me, and then he was mean, just as I knew he would be, but it didn't help... and that guy needs to learn that he doesn't help. He just makes me feel bad. And I ALREADY feel bad, so he just makes it worse.

So, I get home from work and start calling the 2 bedroom places I've been eying on WSR... and my two favorites are already rented (why do they keep the listing up if they're not available?!?!) NOW I'm afraid even if by the grace of God I make some money in the next week, all the places in LA will have someone already living in them. I know that's really unrealistic... or IS IT??

And THEN Jim said I should stay in Leona's apartment for a couple of months... but I already have a roommate. And Dustin HAS to move, too. I can't just leave him high and dry.

BOO. I hate this.

A lot of "hahaha"ing going on

It RAINED yesterday. This wouldn't be news except for the fact that:
A. It hasn't rained since March (I don't actually remember the last time it rained... I THINK it was in March, though. Definitely not AFTER March.)
B. It's not really supposed to rain until November.

So, I woke up at like 6:30am... and I'm thinking "Oh my God, it's raining." I was cursing the fact that I was parked in my garage and not outside, so my car could get cleaned off (no money to wash car = really dirty car). I couldn't stop thinking about it, and the fear that I had that it would stop raining before I woke up caused me to get out of bed and drive around Studio City at 6:30am, just to get my car wet. Yeah, I could have just parked it outside... but I figured, since I was moving it anyway I might as well drive around.

So, that was fun. Then I went back to bed.

We have one last hope for a 4 bedroom apartment, if I don't hear anything today, I am going to apply for 2 bedrooms starting tomorrow.

So, yesterday at work, one of my tables was Jonathan and Victoria from last year's Amazing Race. He was the guy who pushed her. I hated them. I didn't hate them as a table, though. ALTHOUGH.... hahaha, nah. I won't say it. They were there to see this guy who works as a chef in the morning, Aaron... who was ALSO on the Amazing Race!!! Hahahaha. You can see him here as the guy whose name is "Aaron." Oh my gosh, how funny. I WORK with a reality show fake celebrity. Anyway, Jonathan and Victoria were pretty nice... in that LA sort of way. You'll know what I'm talking about if... you live here. But, it made my night. I also got to sing a couple of times last night, which was fun. It's less scary now.

Now I want to go on the Amazing Race more than ever... hahahaha. My life is ridiculous.

Today is my brother's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ROB!!!!

I'm at Jim's office in Pasadena. I stopped by for dinner since it was on my way back from Ontario. I can't believe I drive for hours just for a 5 minute audition.

Anyway, it went really well. It's kind of... weird... though. It's at Gardiner Whittier Spring Auditorium, which is this really great theatre.... but it's at a high school. I mean, granted, ok, the high school is humongous, but it's still kind of weird. They're casting all the lead roles from age-appropriate people... ie, they won't have like... a 17 year old playing belle or the beast. However, the high school kids are allowed to audition for the chorus. And when I got there I saw this huge crowd of kids standing outside. One of them (a GUY) yells "Ok, who's singing from "Wicked"? I'M singing from "Wicked"!" Then these two girls stopped me. "Are you auditioning!??!"
"Yeah."
"Who are you auditioning for??"
"I dunno... whoever."
"WOW! You should audition for Belle... Hey, do you want to sit with us and sing back and forth to eachother??"
"I don't really think I have... time... for that. Do you know if we're supposed to sign in or something?"
And then, luckily, some big red haired girl saved my life and directed me to where the "non-student" auditions were being held.

There was only one other girl there who looked presentable. She went first, but she picked a really bad song... and I went second. WHILE she was going though, this boy sat down next to me and started talking to me about... his life? God, I don't know. It was so surreal. I had just driven like 50 miles and there were all these high school kids... argh. So, anyway, I went in, sang "Meadowlark", sounded really good, and then they had me read. The read went well, they asked where I live... the music director lives there too ("You guys can car pool!!!" - The Director) and then they thanked me, I thanked music director because "Meadowlark" is NOT EASY to play, and then I left.

Jim thought this story sounds a little pathetic... and yeah, I guess it does. But you know what? If I get cast (and not cast in YAGMCB), I WILL be doing this show. The directors are from LA, I'd be playing a great role in a great show in a huge theatre... I don't care if the chorus is composed of all high school kids. You wouldn't know that from my resume... you'd just know the role.

I just want to be cast in SOMETHING. I don't care which show, just one of them!

Other than that, we have one option left for a four bedroom apartment... Erin checked it out today and loved it. If the security deposit is low enough, we're gonna probably go for it. If not, we're splitting back up to pairs, and I'll just have Dustin as a roommate. I already know where I want to apply if that happens. I just hope I have... money. Because money is not something I have right now. Dear MG, please start bringing me people who will tip me $20 per table. And let me have 40 tables before I have to pay rent. Thx. Love, Alisa.

OH MY GOD, THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE. THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN!!!! HOW AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO AFFORD TO MOVE!?!?!?!

Ok, ok, ok. Dear God, please provide this for me. Thx. Love, Alisa.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

So I'm going to this audition for Beauty and the Beast tomorrow in Ontario (California... not Canada... although it might as well be in Canada because it is SO FAR AWAY) and I started thinking about Disney princesses... and I mean, as much as I love Ariel, Belle is obviously the best princess. She's adventurous and strong and smart (everything that stupid Snow White is NOT)... and there's only one beef I have with the movie:

Why don't they ever give the beast a name? I mean, come on, he wasn't ALWAYS called "beast" (and if he was, I wonder if anyone of the servants were surprised at his transformation). He could have even been, like... Jerry. Jerry Beastwell. It just really bothers me that Belle ALWAYS refers to him as "Beast." WHAT ABOUT WHEN HE'S NORMAL AGAIN!?!!? WHAT THEN, DISNEY FOLKS!?!?!

My audition today for YAGMCB went really well. It took about half an hour each way (in no traffic :( ) to get to Azusa, but the people were very nice. According to the "callback sheet" they'll call within 3 days if I'm called back, and then those are next Monday. I reeeeeaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyy hope I'm called back. They had me sing twice ("Schroeder" the second time) and after wards they clapped, and I laughed saying "Well, that's the best applause I've gotten all day.." and they said "That's the first applause WE'VE given..." So that's good. Hopefully.

God, I hope I get it. I hope I get it. How many kitties do they neeeeeeeeeed?

By the way, Azusa is weird. It looks like Arizona. I never think about the fact that I live in the "west" since I'm in a city.... but I do. And the "west" sucks.

East coast people NEVER like the west, though.

Oh man, I am so beat. Ok, let's see... Thursday I worked as a drink runner (which was completely unnecessary) and Friday I had off from work. I went to the OG to pick up my last check and talked to Paul for an hour or something, and said hi to all my fellas... you know, Pedro and Willy and Luciano... and Joe V. :) Willy said he has a present for me that's he's bringing to the MG on Wednesday night. I don't know what this could possibly be, especially because it's Willy. I love those guys. They're so cute. And we SO don't speak the same language at all.

After that I drove down the western part of Melrose and saw all the stuff I never saw before. Like the Rudy's on Melrose. And Urth Cafe.

THEN I went to Brandon's surprise party, which was fun. For a long time I was the only non-gay non-guy there... and finally Erin came to make me feel less out of place (and cuz everyone loves Brandon).

Ok, so then Jim and I got ice cream and brought Chloe over to Jim's to visit Simon. They played just like old times. Jim had, of course, never seen this since he was away during all their adorableness, but he could see why I wanted them to reunite so badly.

Today I worked starting at 3. They made me go on a break at 4, which was absolutely pointless. We got busy... around 6-6:30ish... my average tip was probably about $9 and I ended up walking with 75ish dollars, which is more than I would have made at the OG, so it's all good. It was kind of a stressful night at first (we're all so... new), but it got better. This one girl, who's name I won't name, has made herself the "unofficial singer." It was sooo annoying. It wouldn't be if she... you know... stayed on key while singing happy birthday... but she DOESN'T. She was much more concerned with singing as high as she possibly could and not letting any other singer sing. Ugh. I did get to sing for Erin (And oh my God, it was so scary. I was literally shaking---I have no clue why) but then I heard the annoying girl telling her table she was behind with their order because "I'm the only singer on tonight"---WTF!?!?! There were at LEAST 3 others... I don't like that girl. I don't like her AT ALL.

Ok, so THEN I went to Jenna's going away party (she's moving back to Chicago) at ToGo Joe's house (My former best california friend)... and I saw... jeez... everyone. Everyone I liked from the OG ever (almost) was there. And they were ALLLLLL drunk. Or high. I left first (I always do) since I work in the morning and am going to an audition at night. I couldn't keep screaming there.

And now... I am so tired. I need sleep . And I need the hiccups I have to go away because they are annoying.

Ohhhhhh, jeez. I just cried watching the new Harry Potter trailer. I can't wait to see this movie.

(look at the super scary glimpse of Voldemort near the end. I screamed. Really.)

I already know what I am going to be like while watching this movie. I think it'll be similar to what I was like during the 3rd LOTR movie...

Videos of the week (and more!)

Ok, seriously, guys.... you HAVE to watch these videos. (they are WORTH IT!!!!!!)

Trapped In The Closet (Chp. 1 Of 5) by R. Kelly
Trapped In The Closet (Chp. 2 Of 5) by R. Kelly
Trapped In The Closet (Chp. 3 Of 5) by R. Kelly
Trapped In The Closet (Chp. 4 Of 5) by R. Kelly
Trapped In The Closet (Chp. 5 Of 5) by R. Kelly


I'm sure a lot of you have seen this (thanks to the VMAs and... the fact that you're more "in the loop" with music than I am), but this collection of videos is the funniest thing I've seen in a LONG time. I laughed out loud (which isn't good since it's 2am and Kellee's asleep.) Beware, though... none of it is PG, but "chapter 4" is really not PG. But, OH MY GOD, it is soooo funny.

That R. Kelly is freakin hysterical. (PS - anyone know if that is really the end of the story?)

And, thanks to the advice of katie e, apparently my busted tees size is NOT a girls medium. I'll look into it more and let you know. ;)

Work tonight sucked since I was the breaker and we were busy. When you know you aren't getting any tips... it sucks to be busy. Anyway, so they triple sat me (on the SECOND DAY???) when I was breaking my second person, and it freaked me out. All the developers came running over to try to help me... it messed things up for the rest of the night.

It was also Matt's (the developer) birthday (and the last day they were here). I will miss him a lot. We all agreed he was the coolest guy there.

Ok... let's see... oh! I got a call from Josh Gordan today. He got "A Chorus Line" tour through Texas and Hawaii and he's moving to NYC soon. When I got this message I was so happy I almost cried. Josh is so ridiculously talented... I am SOOOOO glad he's finally getting out of Kent. WAY out of Kent. I heart Josh.

LOL... I love Busted tees (for future reference... MY favorites are the "second amendment" and "big mistake" ones...) :) (and my size is medium girls... hahahaha)

Chlo-dog (what a great name for a kitten) is sitting, and has been sitting, on my lap for like... an hour. And she's just so cute that I don't want to move her. Even though she stinks to high heaven. It's just so rare that she's not running around like a crazy person that you have to really cherish these moments.

I just got an email from Jamie Wilding (my former music theory teacher)... and let me tell you, it was the funniest thing that's ever happened to me. :) (ok, maybe not THE funniest, but it did make me laugh. especially because he actually said "perhaps you remember me. I tried to teach you theory once...")

Kellee has to get tested for cervical cancer. When she went home last month she had her "annual" exam and it came back abnormal. Please keep her in your prayers... it's probably nothing (apparently this happens a lot?) but still. I HOPE it's nothing. It BETTER be nothing! Or else!!

Hmmmm.... well, not too much has happened, apparently. As you probably heard (I have no clue why this was national news), the power went off in basically all of LA. I thought it was just my apartment complex. So... I read some and then took a nap. Later I found out it was everywhere. And, as you can imagine, the MG was none too pleased about the power going off in the middle of their opening day.

Yesterday Jim and I went to free food weekend at the MG. Matt was our developer (he's ALWAYS my developer) and it was a delicious. Later I went to Tribe, which was fine. I have problems with Tribe, though. It's hard to explain. I don't dislike anyone there... but I do hate the drumming... but that's not the problem. It's like I won't LET myself like Tribe. I think it's a mixture of not wanting to like it for the sake of Jim and also because he changed after he started going there. It's a bunch of mixed feelings. I'm so closed off, though.... I think, even if I COULD "feel it" there, I wouldn't let myself.

Today I worked at 3:30 (we didn't re-open after the power outage until 4pm), but sadly we were really slow. Probably a mix of the power thing and no one knowing we were open. And too many people working. I took 5 tables. I only got one BAD tip, but most of my checks weren't too high. I made more than I would have at the OG, though... I BETTER.

Before I left for work (and obviously after the power came back) I was looking on westside rentals for a place for the four of us... and I found a 3 bedroom, 2 bath PLUS BONUS ROOM house for $1700 in North Hollywood. I pay $1700 for a 2 bedroom NOW! I couldn't believe it. I REALLY hope we get this place because that would be amazing.

Lisa Loeb is playing the Kent Stage on October 13th.

I no longer live there.

damnit!

RAGE.

Take a look at these jerks.

God, I love them. Bono sounds... amazing. I wish that 18th century congressional congress jackets would come back into style... again.

Work was SLOW! Can you believe that? Free food (friends&family/VIP) and I only had two tables in 5 hours. Some people had only one and some had NONE. Of course, off those 2 tables, I made $24. Can you believe that? That's the most I've ever made in tips. Period.

Hahaha, that'd be so much more pathetic if it were true.

I was soooooo tired at work. So was Dustin. To keep myself entertained I kept saying "Betsy Rose! Betsy Rose!" because, apparently, it's the funniest thing I've ever heard.

Oooooh, guess who DID come to the MG today? This freaking loser. Hahahaha! Seriously! And he was there for HOURS. He wore this stupid hat and looked ridiculous. I was like "Ok, who invited Ryan Cabrera to this thing??" The better question is... why did he COME?

After work I talked to Jim for an HOUR and then came over to get dinner at Johnnie's... and in the two weeks I was away, I missed it terribly. Leona made me these cookies when Jim had broken up with me and I brought them over... and Jim tried to eat them all. I said "She baked me these cookies because YOU broke up with me." And he was all "Well, if I wouldn't have broken up with you for that day then you wouldn't have the cookies in the first place. So, it's BECAUSE OF ME that you have them." And I suppose he has a point... but no.

I just got back from an evening all over the town. Erin, Dustin and I went to see Ed in Urinetown. He did really well and the show was actually pretty decent. Everyone sounded great. As much as I wanted to hate the girl playing little sally, she DID look 12 or younger and she sounded really good. It was pretty easy to hate the girl playing becky two shoes, though... because she was REALLY BAD. I didn't like Bobby but Hope was good. The two of them are dating and I said "Bobby and Hope are dating which is weird because she's SO much better looking than him.. and HE'S obviously GAY." Caldwell was good, too...as was Penny. So it was pretty good. :)

After that, I went to see the Exorcism of Emily Rose. Now, as I hate scary movies, and since every time even the COMMERCIAL came on I covered my ears, closed my eyes and hummed to myself, you may wonder why I went. Well, everyone I was with was going, as were Joe and Kate and JD and Ryan.... and so I just... went. Even though when Erin originally asked if I wanted to go I said "NO WAY. I want nothing to do with that movie!!!!" JD, Ryan and Kristen (another OG girl) came and they were SOOOOOO drunk. Kristen and JD were making out... and JD is GAY!!! I was like "I thought Kristen...was a girl." Ryan was so drunk he poured a bottle of wine all over himself outside the theatre. THAT was pretty funny, though. They also started to smoke pot in the theatre which is when me, Joe and Dustin moved, soon to be followed by Kate, Brad, Erin and Jimmy C (when he returned from the bathroom). Ryan was saying when they were on their way to the theatre he and JD were chanting "Betsy Rose! Betsy Rose!" for a long time before they realized it was EMILY rose. Ryan also called her "Elizabeth Rose." Drunk people are funny.

Anyway, I freaked out during MOST of the movie... I guess it was a good thing I had my eyes closed half the time. I hated it. Thank God there are people like Joe around who will remind me that they are all actors.

So, when the movie got out, Ryan was nowhere to be found... who knows where he went. It's now almost 4am... which sucks because I have to be AT WORK in 5 hours. Whoops.

I'll leave you with this thought.... have any of you noticed how uncanny the resemblance between Ally Sheedy's haircut (circa Breakfast Club) and mine are?

I saw Superman, Spiderman and Batman walking towards Hollywood/Highland today.

All I could think was "There must be a REALLY BIG emergency for them to get togehter."

PS - Wendys is a good company. And they have the best chicken sandwhiches in all of fast food.

Sergio.... my being ok or not is NOT more important than me wishing you congratulations on the WEDDING. :)

But, yeah, I'm ok.

Yesterday was pretty good. Although I woke up way earlier than I had wanted to. Leona locked her keys in her car, with the engine on, so I had to bring the spare set to her. It wasn't a big deal, but I'm sure I didn't LOOK happy.

We also had our last day of MG training. It was SO NICE because right before I went in there, I saw JD, Joe and Kate sitting outside. Since I love all of them, it was just thrilling to see. JD was in the middle of a sentence and I was like "wait wait wait. I have to tell you guys something. My boyfriend broke up with me for a day but then we got back together." And they just sat there with their mouths open. And then I went to work. :)

For the last 3 days there, all we've been doing is spending an hour going over a few menu items and then role playing the restaurant. The role playing was good, the going over the menu is NOT. It was SO BORING. Yesterday Dutstin and I ended up using the MG crossword to find bad words and it ALWAYS ended up with at least one of us threatening to commit suicide if they wouldn't hurry up. It was torture. Some of our managers think they are SOOOOO funny, but they are so NOT funny. They have like... negative amounts of personality. The trainers are better... especially Robyn (who cried telling us she thought we'd be great) Judy (who EVERYONE loves) and Matt (who actually IS funny). I'll miss those 3 when they go back to where ever they came from. I'm pretty ready for the opening/VIP weekend... I keep wanting to call the wine the Signature House wine instead of the Honor System House wine... and yesterday when I was role playing I said "Have you guys ever been to the Olive..... Macaroni Grill before?" I just have to get the OG out of my head.

The computer is a little complicated, but yesterday I had no help with it and I was fine.

Oh, so yesterday I had one half of one hour (that's all they gave us every night) to finish 6 quizzes... one of my semi-completed ones they had THROWN OUT. I was FURIOUS. I took these things as fast as I could and then helped Dustin (since everyone helped ME, not to mention my out-right cheating and EVERYONE asking the trainers for the answers).

After that I went to visit Jimmy for a while, but not too long since it was late. I love him...and I think things are ALREADY starting to get better.. he's just more receptive or something. Maybe burning man DID do a little good (or maybe his mom talked sense into him ;) ).

Today Erin, Dustin and I are probably going to look for an apartment, but definitely going to see Urinetown. I'm excited to see Ed... and how crappy the people who aren't me are. :)

I don't know if I mentioned this, but I got the CD to Dirty Rotten Scoundrels and it is GREAT. I love the music and I think "Love is Your Legs" is one of the funniest, best-written songs in all of musical theatre.
"Love is my legs
And you are my love
So you are my
feet-bones of love."

HAHAHAHAHA.

(PS--- thanks everyone who helped me OR jimmy.

And jen, don't ever tell mom anything again)

Ok, ok ok. I know you were all hanging on the edge of your seats for an update. Sit back. It's ok.

Last night was horrible. I mean, imagine the worst thing ever, and then imagine me falling on the floor because I can't walk anymore. And then times it by... a million. And there you have the level of horrible last night was. I've never seen Jim so heartless. It was just business. It was an agenda... get the cat, break up with girlfriend, go home. He was in such a hurry, he wouldn't listen to me.... he didn't even try to do this tactfully, it was just MEAN. I hope I never see him like that again, because it was scary.

So, anyway, he leaves and I crawl to Kellee's room. When I stopped crying, I stopped... and haven't started again. We talked, she gave me a muscle relaxer, I eventually went to bed. (I got to talk to Alison, too, at 5:30 when she got my text message. All I was thinking was "God, I wish I had another muscle relaxer.")

Here was the problem, though... I didn't really get to SAY anything to Jim. He wouldn't have heard it if I did, anyway. I was using my angry defense and he was using his never-before-seen robot defense. I told Kellee how he said we shouldn't communicate for a while but how I still needed to say things to him. She said that was stupid and if he wouldn't even listen to me it was totally his loss.

So, I text messaged him. And eventually I got him to call me. And to my relief he said it WAS important enough to talk about in person.

And I wrote down a lot I needed to say and went to work (which was stupid) and then I went to his house to talk.

He immediately apologized for last night, which was a relief. We had a pretty normal conversation... I told him about stuff that happened while he was gone, let him read my 6 pages of stuff I needed to say... we got things worked out. I'm putting it this way: we're on the road to recovery.

I feel like a drama queen. But man, if you would have been there you would understand. It was HARSH.

Anyway, I ended up realizing that this isn't all Jim's fault (I know... WHAT?!?! ;) ), but that we are both really stuck in a rut. I'm doing NOTHING, I'm not living up to any of my potential... it was just a bad situation. I need to go to church, I need to sing, I need to try harder, I need to do something that will fulfill me, I need to take RISKS. You all know I like to pretend that I'm perfect... but I know I'm not.

So, we agreed to work. I mean, that's basically it. I didn't know going in to tonight if my getting to talk to him would do anything---I was prepared either way. I planned for the worst and hoped for the best. I was already thinking of what I was going to do with myself with all my free time. It was all pretty...boring (ie: work out... which would have ended badly because any time I would have heard a song by Coldplay I would have cried).

You can't have a relationship without effort by both parties. You can't make YOURSELF better if you're just festering and you're definitely not improving anyone else's life. We both have a lot to work on... and it's NOT going to be the same. But frankly, maybe that's good.

So, yeah, Jim said to forget yesterday ever happened. :)

help me

(The post that I was too upset to c&p over to this blog when I wrote it last night: "FUCK BURNING MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Just to clarify a LITTLE....)


This is going to be the worst day ever. Stupid Jim. I woke up at 8:30 and just laid in my bed so FURIOUS at him, at burning man, at his friends... pretty much anything he was near this last week was something I was furious at.

I don't want to even go into it now... because I feel like I already have so many times and SO many more are yet to come. I just feel so.... hopeless. And Mrs Gilmore, YOU will get the pleasure of knowing all the secrets when he calls you today. Lucky. *I* don't even know yet!

There is just this feeling of terror in my stomach...and it feels like heartburn and hunger. And it chokes me up and brings tears to my eyes. And if he breaks up with me... I mean, I REALLY don't know what I am going to do.

And not because I'll be "lost without him" or something like that... but because I'll have to make so many decisions so fast. I couldn't stay here... I'd just be yearning to get out. But it's not like I have enough money to move to NYC right now. And I CAN'T move back to Ohio (except to sell my car so I could move to New York). I wish I knew what was going to happen, I wish this would have happened before RIGHT NOW (I'm sure it's going to be really impressive being so psychotic during this week of training at the MG) and I wish the kitties could stay together because they are best friends.

Jim is just so stupid. So, soooo stupid.

Well...uhh.....

Not too much to say today. I stayed in my apartment all day, not even showering until... 6pm? Something like that. It was great. I did nothing. I did have to supervise the kitties, though...

(This is all they do, all day long)

This morning I found this great website, Quick Gifts where you pick the $ amount and can send a gift card to anyone and either they or you can pick the place (off of the places they offer). What a great idea... especially when there is SOMEONE (hint: me) with a birthday coming up in approximately 54 days. :)

So, yeah, relaxing after all the working and being sick this week was nice. I watched some Austin Powers 2 and mostly played on the computer, looking for apartments and stuff. I did talk to Brandon and Dix_huit a little. That was fun. Now I'm just sitting here, wondering if Jim is going to call me tonight since they MIGHT be leaving this evening instead of tomorrow. I hope they do. I miss him.

Sigh... either way, kitty is gonna have another stressful day tomorrow. :(

Oh jeez, that reminds me, I should really study my MG stuff. Ok, bye.

Oh my God. I have never had a more bittersweet day in my life.

But first... last night. I made $25 last night. That's right, be jealous. My tables were for parties of 5 or more and we were slow in the beginning.. and then the two parties of 5 or more I DID have tipped me $5 on 56 and $2 on $65 (a party of 7). They all made me run, too. When I was prebussing the party of 7 with Jose I was laughing about it and then said "I think I'm gonna cry" and I DID and I had to go down to the bar for a 15 minute time out. Through my tears Joe told me that in the pie of life the OG (and the MG) are less than 1%... which is true. But I was still pretty unhappy. Anyway... enough about last night. Now we can talk about how MISERABLE I am.

So, it was my last day at the OG today. After last night I thought it would be easier... but no. No way. I don't know if a lot of people can really understand what it's been like for me. I mean, I moved here with only Jim and my roommates--I knew NO ONE else (and I didn't even know my roommates that well when we first got here) in the whole state. I saw my co-workers more than anyone else. Anderson and Hugo were the first people who started to get to know me out here. Anderson was my first "California friend." I grew more attached to these people than I have been to any collective group of people EVER. I mean, there's always a few people I missed from jobs (Dix huit, matt, lauren, stephanie from penneys, kelly, katie...) but I have never been able to say I'd miss EVERY SINGLE PERSON. And how I managed to be lucky enough to have these people in my life, I'll never know. I don't think a year ago I'd have ever said that I'd grow so close to people I can barely speak with. But boy did I.

The first time I cried was saying goodbye to Ryan. He actually sounded sincere when he was talking to me, which was just too much. God, I swear he looked like he was going to cry, too.

I then cried saying goodbye to Joe when he left for the night because I'm just so close with him. Joe and I are so much like siblings that we LOOK alike. At least our hair does... but he is so great. I wish everyone could know him, because everyone's life would be better.

And then, of course, I cried when I left. I said goodbye to Petra, Pedro, Hugo, Willy, Angel, Leon, Ernesto, (busser) Hugo, Luciano, and Jenna just, like... sobbing. And I swear to God, you know what was playing on the radio while this is going on? Green Day's "Time of Your Life." I was like "WHY IS THIS SONG ON NOW?? Is the radio reading my mind????"

And then I cried all the way home, I cried trying to translate the spanish on the card people got for me, and I'm still really crying, but mostly I'm just thirsty now.

A bunch of people signed a card for me, Ashley made me one, and Anderson came in specially to give me a card/say goodbye. I'll definitely stay in touch with Anderson, though, because he's like a freaking saint. Calvin came in just to sit in my section and, believe it or not, my last table almost tipped me %20. AMAZING! (although when it's %20 of $30, you can see why we don't make much even on good tip days.)

So... it was just so hard. And surreal. Maybe it was because of the music. When I was saying goodbye to Ernesto (and let me just say, as much as I LOVE everyone else, I probably won't *miss* anyone more than him.) I was thinking of how unreal it all seemed. It's probably because I'm sick. I kind of felt like I was dreaming all day.

God, I HATE goodbyes! And to think, the first day there I wanted to quit. As Coldplay says, "The hardest part was letting go, not taking part."

So, yeah, this sucks. I'm glad I have a new job and can meet new people and (fingers crossed) make more money, but I will never forget everyone at the Westwood OG. They will always be my "California family."

Here's a couple adorable pictures mostly here to cheer ME up...



I love the kitties.

Well, I had my first REAL day of MG training. I was tired and it was a little hard for me to pay attention because of that (I was never good at... paying attention) but all in all it was good. I'm glad I already know so much about italian food and wine, otherwise I'd be scared.

I paid for parking today. Hooray! It's such a relief to not have to do that again for a whole month. And the fact that it's $30 compared to the (at LEAST) $100 I'd pay to park in Westwood is just... wonderful.

I work tonight and tomorrow is my last day at the OG. I'm sure I'll cry. I'm gonna miss people so much. Mostly back of the house people, since a lot of servers are leaving. Sigh.... especially Pedro.

I didn't really miss Jim until today. Probably because I have the cat and he keeps me entertained. It's definitely weird to not be able to talk to him at all. I wish he could contact me just so I know he's ok and that he's not cheating on me or anything. I told him if he did, I was keeping Simon.

I'm feeling a little better today. Yesterday was HORRIBLE. I was so achey and hot all day. I took a nap from like 3-4 and then went to work, took 2 tables and went home because it was just too hard. A couple of people at work are sick, though... and I get sick all the time, so I'm not surprised I was one of the first. Last night I laid in bed for 2 hours sooo uncomfortable and sniffly and just... sad... and then I got up and took one of Kellee's Nyquil so I could sleep. I wanted to stay away from Nyquil, because when I take it I have weird Nyquil dreams and get so loopy... but I HAD to. Anyway, the Nyquil didn't wear off until like... 1pm. And work was pretty funny. It made it less bad because I wasn't as "sick" but I was more crazy.

Leona told me about an agent open call which I am going to go to next week before MG training. I'm excited. She and Kellee both got called back, which is great, and I hope they get signed.

ALL the kitties do all day is play fight. That is all. When they are allowed out of the room, they go straight for the other one and just start attacking eachother. I worry about the kitten, since she is so small and Simon is so big, but they seem to be ok. It makes it easier for ME, too, since I don't have to play with Simon. I'm sure he misses wrestling with Jim so wrestling with Chloe will have to do. I feel like he's teaching her the tricks of the trade or something.

I'm sick AGAIN. I don't know why... my nose has been running the last couple of days but today I feel like I have the flu. My whole body hurts. Man... WHY?

The kitties are so cute. Yesterday they just wanted to smell eachother (Chloe wanted to play) but today they are ONLY play fighting. They're not hurting eachother or anything, and I'm watching them carefully to make sure no one gets hurt. Simon is so... chill. He just sits there and this tiny kitten attacks him. It's funny. I love him.

I have to work at 5:30, but i SO do not want to since I feel like crap. Leona doesn't think I should go... and I probably shouldn't because I'll just get more people sick... but I kind of have to. But man... I don't want to. At all.

Ok, Christy, Charlie and Danny (I know you read this!) I need your addresses. I have your home address, boys, but I need your current mail receiving addresses. Email me or comment and I won't post it.

Man, yesterday was so stressful. I worked in the morning, which was stupid but luckily Nick let me not come in for my night shift. I wouldn't have, anyway. I didn't want to call off during my last week, but I was going to because I needed to help Jim with kitty and getting stuff ready (and no one would pick up my shift). It was such a waste at work, too. I didn't make 15% on a tip THE WHOLE DAY. Mostly 10% and then a few 11-14%s. Man... I was so unhappy. Ryan helped me out by working 8 hours so at least SOME of my night shift was covered, but Nick didn't seem to care anyway since we had enough people on. And that is why I love Nick.

So, anyway, I helped Jim load up his car and then we loaded kitty up and kitty was SO SAD to go back in the cat box. Jim and I said goodbye ( :( ) and then I started to drive back to my place. I sang to kitty to make him feel better, which worked for a while... until he had to go to the bathroom. And, you know, when a cat's gotta go, it's not like he can hold it. So, he did... and then he started FREAKING OUT because he's one of those cats who WILL NOT be near the stuff (he runs the second he's out of his litter box). He's already scared and confused, and then he's trapped inside a small box with his own crap... I think you would do what he did next, too. He threw up all over it. I'm practically crying by this point.. I felt SOOOOO BAD for him. The only good thing was when he threw up I was pulling into my complex, and he also stayed out of it. I ran him upstairs and let him out (let him out without the litter box, because I couldn't stand for him to be in there any longer), ran to get the litter box and then got his food and his perch and stuff. He stayed under the bed for a couple hours. I was so afraid I had traumatized him for life. I'm still kind of scared he won't ever go back in the cat carrier... but he's ok now. Kellee came in to meet him and he came out. He explored my room last night and today he's exploring my living room. He seems very interested in it, too. Today I'm gonna try to introduce him to the kitten for real. We showed them to eachother last night, but kitten was not ready for THAT jelly. Simon just wanted to smell her and she definitely wanted to swat at him. He'll be used to the whole place by then, so I think it'll be ok. I want them to be friends and cuddle together because that would be the cutest thing ever.

I don't think I have to work tonight. I put up a note saying I'd pick up shifts, but no one signed up (because if they wanted me to do it, they should have called me by now) so I'll check for sure and then... stay here. I don't want to work, anymore... especially since I'll be working every other day this week, including OG AND MG on Friday and Saturday and I want to go to an audition on Thursday night. So, as you can see, I need my rest, haha.

Jim called at like...2am. They still hadn't left yet. Apparently it's a 14 hour drive, so I hope they left not too long after that. He's not taking his car anymore, which is good because I'd be scared of him driving into the night with no sleep. I hope he calls me again before he gets there because I will have NO contact with him until he gets back. They're gonna be in the middle of the desert so no cell phones, internets... nothing. Which reminds me, if anyone out there REALLY needs to talk to him (i'm talking like, emergencies, not about your hair or something) call me and I'll call Eric (who isn't leaving until Thursday, and would be able to get him the message by Friday) but if it's after Thursday.. sorry. Dix_huit, I'm talking to you, here. Don't go try and contacting Jim, again. He won't be there. ;)

I'm gonna buy some groceries today. Yay.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIM'S MOM!!!!!!! She is, by far, the best mom of a boyfriend ever.

Also, happy birthday to Cameron, who will probably never read this. I baked him a cake.

I can't believe Katrina. What a bitch.

Last night after Jim and I talked about lunch, we ate it and then we drove to the pch and up into Ventura county. We went to Mugu point for a while then turned down Topenga Canyon to get back. I wanted to take Muholland (because it has the best views in LA) and we did... but we apparently took the weird, side street part of Mulholland... which eventually turns into several miles of dirt road and then dead-ends. I was laughing the whole time. Jim was not. I don't think that was the REAL Mulholland... but I am determined to drive from Hollywood to where ever Muholland actually DOES go, someday.

Oh, also, Jim bought me a rose at the gas station. That proves it was a real date and not just boredom. And then, later, we went to Denny's.

I have come to the conclusion that there are some people who go out to eat for the sole purpose of bossing someone around and making them feel bad, because they have someone who does it to THEM. Those people need to GET OVER IT and leave me and my homies alone.

Today Jim and I ate crackers and cheese. And kitty is sleeping behind the computer. Awwwwww.

I'm excited about Jim leaving for Burning Man, actually. I am just so SICK of that guy. Hahahaha, just kidding. I'll probably worry about him a lot since he'll be completely unreachable. Tomorrow kitty is coming to stay at my apartment (YAY!) where he'll enjoy the comforts of carpeting and central air. And no ants or other bugs getting into his food and/or personal space. He'll probably never want to leave.

My sister got her ear pierced in NYC. I'm still jealous. I would post the picture she sent me of it, but I can't yet. Maybe I'll get her to send it to my email address and THEN I'll be able to do it. Oh man... also, Jen saw Dirty Rotten Scoundrels on broadway... and not only does this show have Sherie Rene Scott (my vocal twin) in it, but it has Joanna Gleason (my, uh... idol) in it. I am SO JEALOUS.

GROWL. HULK SO JEALOUS!!!!!

Ok, that seals the deal. I have to go to NYC. Before this cast leaves. Maybe I'll start a fund. It's amazing how one show renewed my interest in broadway shows. Just now.

I'm killing some time, waiting for my laundry to finish so's I can go meet Jim and talk about lunch. Not eat it... just talk about it.

So, those of you who are receiving birthday gifts, you'll be happy to know that yesterday I bought the necessary supplies. It didn't even cost that much, which is also nice. Not that I should brag about how much I DIDN'T spend... but I am. I think you'll all find them to be perfect.

Wow. Imagine this. I already knew I wouldn't be able to get financial aid because of the lack of credits that I could take during a semester (which makes it impossible to go to school this fall) but I just got a letter from PCC saying I don't qualify for ANY financial aid... even if I COULD go to school full-time! That seems... impossible. I mean, I have no money, my family has no money.... what is going on here? Will I ever be able to finish school? If I am, will I have to work 6 jobs to pay for it? These answers and more coming soon...

We had a MG meeting today. It was full of a lot of screaming things (Macgrill rocks!) and clapping for the various people there to help open the store. I think it'll be good, though. The only downfall is that we're supposed to tip EVERYONE out. And I am not kidding. Everyone. Except the cooks, dishwashers and managers. But they'll probably want some $$$ eventually, too.

I'll update again later. I need to go check on the... laundry.

"Jesus He Knows Me"ByGenesis

Pretty poor quality... but I thought the timing was right. Sorry to overload you all with the members of Genesis.

So, I MAY have found a new roommate for when my lease is up. My friend Dustin may need to move or may have a roommate moving out, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that things work out. Because i'm poor. And believe it or not but there aren't a lot of studio apartments in LA for <$600. (which is sad.)

And yes, Dustin is gay. AND he's a republican. EVERYONE wins!

Other than that, I worked for a while today... and yesterday. My sister is in NYC right now. LUCKY.

Tonight is taco night! Woo! That will certainly be delicious.

Man, I feel like I had a lot more to say. Oh. Well, I am feeling kind of down lately. It's just that I'm not DOING anything. Dix huit, I think you can relate (I only say that based on your last xanga entry---not because I think you suck or anything). I can't go to school in the fall because of the MG. That's all there is to it. To be eligible for financial aid, I would need to take more classes than I have time to take based on the availability I gave them. Ugh. So... I have to wait till the spring semester. AND... I mean, jeez. I am definitely not doing anything productive. I'm not in a show, I can't afford acting class or voice lessons (I have promised myself that I WILL start dance classes again soon because I HAVE TO)... I can't even afford to get my headshots printed, let alone do an agent mailing. I'm so not... proactive in my "career." But it is REALLY HARD to be. I wish I could have a real job.

But I hate real jobs, too.

MUST I NEVER BE HAPPY????

Ok.

If I think of what else I wanted to say, I'll post it later. For now.... I leave you with this message.








BLEAH.

This is all for now because I have to get ready for work... but MAN. Check out the trailer for the new HP movie. As much as I dislike the movies, this one is looking a-pretty-pretty good. Very LOTRish.

I liked this book A LOT, too. Hopefully it's better than the third movie.

Whoopsie daisy!

What's even better is the John Stewart commentary from the Daily Show.

I haven't given you guys a real update in... as many days ago as Saturday was. Probably because I was "soooo busy."

Let's see. On Sunday I did NOTHING. I talked to my sister for a couple of hours about HP and my theory... and then I couldn't fall asleep until like 4am. And that sucked.

Monday I worked a double. I made my $20 in the morning, called my parents, sang in my car in the parking garage (that was fun) and then I went back to work for 2 hours as the breaker. Then Jim and I went to Target and then to Bennigan's in Glendale. He bought a whole bunch of stuff for burning man next week. Eating so late, however, gave me bad dreams.

TODAY, though... today was the OG employee party. It was fun except for the really awkward beginning when Nino showed up to say goodbye to Amber. That was weird for ALL of us. After that, though, it got good. Paul is really funny when he's not our GM. I told him "I like this new improved Paul so much better." I took a bunch of the gifts. That was good. :)

Then I went to work and made $65. I took this party of 10 (which is auto-gratuity) and they only ordered 6 entrees to split between all of them.... and one person came in late so they had me RE-HEAT THE LEFTOVERS for that person. It was, perhaps, the most ghetto thing ever. Jimmy (not MY Jimmy, but Jimmy at work) talked to them in Korean, but I don't know Korean. Obviously. He said "I'm from a Korean family and even WE don't do that!" Not to them, though. I didn't mind except for the fact that they asked at a really bad time. I still made $32 off them so I don't care. It was funny, though. And weird.

I got really sunburnt at the party today. I just noticed that.

Tomorrow, if I can get a couple headshots printed, I'm going to go to an audition for Knott's berry farm's Halloween.... show. Or some sort. That'll be fun. Of course, I'm not likely to get cast, since I never get cast anymore, but it's worth a shot.

I wish I wouldn't have wanted to read Harry Potter until all the books were published. I just finished 6... and although I already knew (thanks to the tactlessness of some people) what happened, it STILL sucked and it was still heartbreaking and what is even WORSE is what Harry says to Ginny at the end. Jeez. That makes me MAD. I can see why he thought it necessary... although I hope it doesn't pan out. And I hope I'm being discreet enough.

However, I am happy about Tonks and Lupin... but still sad about Sirius. He was the BEST.

And yes, I know it's not real. But that doesn't mean it's not sad.

My bookmark is lonely.

When work sucks and you're not feeling so great.... there's nothing like The Flying Spaghetti Monster to cheer you up.

Grrrrrr. I just went to put $5 on my laundry card and the machine stole my money. I am mad. I called and left a message since this has happened before. I'll go down to the office before I leave for work today, too. When you're as poor as I am, $5 is a BIG DEAL.

Yesterday I worked a double... and I made a cool $10 during lunch. Wooo... hoo. I was breaker at night, so that $10 is already gone, seeing as though I had to eat yesterday and pay for parking.

Jim and I went to Chipotle and Cold Stone after work, which was good. I got low fat ice cream. Hahaha. I'm sure the fact that there is brownie, chocolate chips and fudge in the mixture will cancel that out. I actually like frozen yogurt and the low-fat ice creams, though. I don't know why.

Well, Lauren left this morning, which means I have the room allllll to myself for the next month. Hooray! Not that I mind having a roommate, but I also like... having my own room. I've been looking into studio apartments around town.... since I'll be working in the valley I think I might actually have to STAY HERE (which sucks)... but at least it's cheaper. Well, not "here" as in archstone because yes, I HATE HATE HATE ARCHSTONE (despite that article), but "here" as in the valley. However, I found a really cute studio in silver lake for $600 last night... I'm sure it won't still be there by the end of September, but a girl can dream. Dream about living near her hair salon....

Dear Christy,

I would like you to come visit. Please accept my offer. You can bring Tom. He seems pretty ok. ;) I don't know what we'd do, but I'm sure it would be a fun time in da city.

Your friend and associate,
Alisa

I found this list of the 100 greatest progressive rock albums last night (i don't know who made the list, but it was there) and look who got the #4 spot.... GENESIS. And not just genesis, SELLING ENGLAND BY THE POUND. It beat out Dark Side...... holy crap. Not many people I know have heard "old-school" (as I like to call them) Genesis, with my fav Peter Gabriel, but they are AMAZING. And weeeeeiiiiirrrrddddd. But mostly amazing. Go listen to them on your i-tunes. Here are some suggestions:

Firth of Fifth
The Musical Box
Supper's Ready
Harold the Barrel
Anything from The Lamb Lies Down on Broadway

Man, even their artwork is cool. "Old School" Genesis, you get a forever thumbs up from me.

And thanks again to will and mike from introducing them to me back in 11th grade.

Oh. Wow. I just noticed Lauren left the lamp she bought for the room. I hope this means I can keep it. I could really use that for the rest of my life.

"Sledgehammer"ByPeter Gabriel

Only the greatest video ever.... EVERYONE loves Peter Gabriel. God, wow.... he was so ahead of his time. I think if I could meet anyone alive... it'd be Peter Gabriel. He's so freaking awesome.

I think I'll do a new video for a couple of weeks... until I get tired of looking for new videos.

Tonight at work I made $50. I had a party that was supposed to be 9 people (automatic gratuity added on) but only ended up being 7 so the tip was left up to them. The bill was $187... I got $25. It could have been WAY worse (I was FREAKING OUT because they had so much alcohol and I didn't want to not be able to tip out enough) but since that was only 13% it could have been better, too. Tomorrow I work a double, breaker in the evening.

I filled out my FAFSA today, with my mom on the phone. That was fun. Last night Jim and I went to the Macaroni Grill in Burbank to see what it's like. It's definitely a step up from the OG... the food is better and it seems "classier." I also finally watched the harry potter 3 movie... it was ok. I mean, the books are WAY WAY better. In fact, the movie was really absurd. And very short. It was Harry Potter, the abridged version.

Jim loves little Chloe kitty, too. She climbs all the way up your leg. How sweet.

Man, don't you just love that Crazy Crab (below)? I do. It was the most hated sports mascot ever. He was with the Giants in 1984. He would run sideways across the bases to boos from the stands and kids throwing things at him. That is AWESOME. I do a pretty freaking sweet impression of a crab which I will one day show you, if I ever find out how to get a video on here, and ever MAKE the video.

Crazy Crab

I love me some crazy crab.

LOOK AT THIS KITTY!!!!!! She is so sweet. She loves to climb people's leg when they're on the computer.. She's just adorable. She runs and jumps and does all kinds of cute kitty things. She also just sits on your lap. She's like... perfect. And so cute.

I worked a double yesterday. At night I had a party of 35 from the Geffen Playhouse. I wanted to talk to them... but I couldn't really do that as their server. So... I didn't. Ed told me last night he was talking to the artistic director of the place he's doing Urinetown (he's also in the show) and he asked Ed if I was pissed that i wasn't cast. Ed said I wasn't HAPPY about it and Ryan said he had no idea why I wasn't cast, they thought I was better than the other girls. Ed told him how we joked about "we come as a package deal" and Ryan said that would have actually WORKED and I was like "nooooo! why can't we go back in timmmmmme???" Of course, if they would allow people to come as a package deal... than...that's kind of weird. But it is refreshing to know that I don't suck and it's just them who suck.

Anyway, Sunday I finished Harry Potter 5 (as I said) and I was sad. I started 6 yesterday on my break and I'm about 200 pages in. I was so concerned about their OWL scores.... Jim and I went to Mel's on Sunday night (Tribe wasn't having service, they were just watching a movie) and I spent way too much money. But the food is soooooo good.

Too bad this kitten isn't mine and that I'll have to say goodbye to her in a little over a month. She's just so cute.

Ugh... why won't he just meet with her? I realize he is not expected, nor HAS to do anything, and it is certainly within is rights to ignore her... but WHY? If someone wanted me to talk to them that badly I'd just do it, no matter what it meant. Jeez.

And that neighbor.... he's crazy. If that's Texas, I have another reason why I never want to go NEAR Texas. It was a little hard to take him seriously, however, when he couldn't even speak English correctly. (which is ironic, since so many of the people here who can't speak English correctly are the ones who want people speaking other languages to get out. Of course, I don't know it if's true about this guy. And I digress...)

Sigh... you know, I had this table from Ireland the other day. At the end of the meal, I wanted to talk to them about Europe. I'd REALLY like to go there someday (especially Ireland) but I'm afraid if things stay the way they are now, it'd be bad. I'm afraid people would be like "stupid American" and tell me to leave or something. Not because they're elitist (because I think WE are the most "elitist" country in the world) but because of how much we've done to MAKE them feel that way. They... understood and said "In Europe it's different." From what they said, people are LESS likely to hate you. Who knows. It just sounds like Europe may be a better place to be, what with all their affordable health care and such. I guess it's probably hard to be materialistic when clothes and "toys" and things are SO expensive. But sometimes... in the middle of the night... when I think about my life... I think I'd give up my things to be able to go to the doctor.

Call me crazy.

Finished Harry Potter 5...

Not Sirius!!!!!! :( :( :(

Some little girl at one of my tables liked my little girl barrettes.

I made $70 tonight after tip out. It was no yesterday, but it could have been worse, I guess. My second table snapped their fingers at me, which made me furious, and my last table only tipped me $2.54 on $25, which made me pretty angry, but oh well. That old, crazy lady who accused me of tampering with her food was back today. Lauren was her server. She was equally as crazy to Lauren, except she didn't think Lauren did anything to her food. That woman is CRAZY.

Jim and I went to Jonnnie's earlier, and we just got back from Denny's. I'm really tired from work. Luckily I have tomorrow off to rest... and READ. We were gonna watch the Harry Potter 3 movie today but it got too late. And Blockbuster didn't have it.

We're having an OG employee party the week after next. I am SO EXCITED. Today Amber sent out a ballot for Funniest, Most helpful, Most outgoing and Best overall employee. EVERYONE voted for Pedro for the last category... including Pedro. She said that those of us who are leaving soon will only "win" if we win by a landslide.... but she also said "and I think you'll probably win for funniest." Although I don't agree... if anything, I'd say most outgoing. I dunno. Anyway, I hope I DO win something (because I looooooove to win things).

Kellee is getting a kitten tomorrow!!! Now I'll have kitties everywhere!! Yay!

I want to go to Melrose tomorrow... but I think I'm too poor. I think this week, however, will be the week where I buy the supplies needed for the birthday presents. I don't have any bills due until the end of the month, so I should be ok to spend a little on what I need. I don't think it'll cost much anyway.

PS - I forgot to mention that I've taken to wearing little girl barrettes in my hair. I'm quite fond of them.



There sure is a lot of red in my hair... I don't notice until I see it from the top... in a cell phone picture...

My friend Will got married today! Yayay!! I remember when he proposed... and how I was rooting him on. Now he's all married and such. I say, CONGRATULATIONS.

I'm obviously not there, because the wedding is in Kansas, but I did look into going... and flights to Kansas are surprisingly expensive.

Last night I made $100 before tip out. I couldn't believe it. That's only the second time I've made $100 in one shift there. I walked with $83, but still... wow. I didn't think my last table was going to tip me (they were so... strange. The guy looked like a 1976 disco king/used car salesman and the woman was wearing blue lace-like pants that you could see through) but they did, and we were all shocked, and the kids ran around me and tried to sell me packets of salt. He said "I've got a packet of salt and a packet of pepper. How much will you give me for them?" and I just looked at this kid and was like "Well... I don't need any salt or pepper, so I wouldn't give you anything for them" and walked away because those kids were ANNOYING.

Maybe I've been reading too much Harry Potter, but I felt a sudden urge to rise up against our managers and their shifty, shady ways. I guess it's a good thing I'm leaving there in 3 weeks.

So... *I* thought things with me and Jim were great. Except a couple fights (and we hadn't fought in a LOOOOOOOONG time before the other day) I was always really happy and I told everyone (when they asked) that things were great and etc etc etc. However, apparently Jim feels differently. I guess he's not excited about the relationship anymore, which was really surprising and I wouldn't have been able to tell at all. Yesterday I told him i wanted to talk to him... and what *I* wanted to tell him was that I really didn't want to lose him. Not that anything had to HAPPEN because of this, but that it was just... true. Because i don't. And then he goes and tells me this stuff he's been feeling (and telling a lot of people other than me, who was totally in the dark) and I'm just like... wha? Normally if something is really wrong, *I* would know. Like, you know, I would feel like something was wrong, too. But not now... and so I'm really surprised and really NERVOUS and I'm not quite sure what to do. I'm just filled with all these person doubts now... and I'm wondering what must be wrong with me. Jim is the one bad at relationships (his words, not exactly mine. Although it does make sense since he doesn't keep in contact with any of his old friends and not even his family that much) and I am generally GREAT at relationships... and it seems if one of us is going to have a problem, it would be me... But it's NOT, and the fact that it's not me is really making me crazy. Am I really just blind to things that are going on or is there something (or somethings) wrong with me that this keeps happening?... Ugh.

I also realized yesterday (well, I mean, it didn't take a lot of deep thought or anything. It was pretty obvious) that maybe %5 of my potential is being used right now. Before all the OTHER news came out, that was another thing I told Jim... because I don't think he would have stayed with me if he didn't think I was POSSIBLE of doing anything (since I'm not currently proving it) and to tell him that I could feel the time would arise soon when I WOULD be doing something. I don't know why I feel like that, but I do. I think I'm going through a phase right now. A children's literature phase. My own life is SO boring and SO stupid that I am living vicariously through the Harry Potter and Narnia kids.

Anyway, so... I don't know what is going on. I think that's the story of my life.

I realized that a lot of people who I have never met (and presumably will never meet) read my blog. That's cool... although strange, because I'm not really all that funny or interesting unless you know me. And even then it's to be debated.

I worked a split today. I only made $65ish for the day. I think my life could be better.... and yet, it could be worse, too. The restaurant has cooled down a lot since it was 85 degrees the other week. Thank God. I hated having sweat dripping down my face when talking to my tables.

During my break today I was eating with Ryan... and he told me about this dream he had where he was dating one of the Olsen twins. He said it was so great and she was such a great girlfriend... and when he woke up he was overcome with a great sadness and depression. Then, later, he saw an issue of In-Touch (or something) and it was talking about Mary-Kate's new boyfriend and he said that the depression swept over him all over again as he was reminded that he was never her boyfriend and never would be. This whole conversation was one of the funniest things I've ever heard. Finally I slammed my fork down and said I couldn't deal with it anymore and he just left. It was so funny.

Jim's apartment got sprayed for termites yesterday so he had to evacuate kitty, who received the pleasure of sitting in jim's office all day. I went up to Pasadena to hang out with kitty who mostly just sat on the couch. He was NOT happy to travel, though. It was so sad to hear him inside the cage. He is ok NOW of course, but it was bad for a while. Anyway, after I helped him get back home I wanted ice cream from McDonald's and since I didn't want to drive there, I told Jim I'd buy him some if he drove. So he did, and then we realized we were really hungry, so we got food.. and then we ate the food and then got into a fight because of Jim's lack of sensitivity over my family's financial situation. I cried a lot. I tend not to talk about things that REALLY upset me... and I doubt any of you really know the whole story (except, of course, my sister) but maybe someday I'll tell it. It's really sad, though. Most of the time when I tell people this story they cry. Really. Well... maybe because the last person I told it to was Justin... and he is more emotional than most people I know. But still! I bet I could make at least one of you cry.

My whole body hurts. I don't know why.

I'm like... 40% done with Harry Potter 5. I am getting mad at the book, though. Harry is acting like such a jerk. And I'm mad at the ministry. Jeez. I suppose, however, that I'd be mad under his fictional circumstances, but I don't think I'd scream as much as he does. As I told Jim "I thought Harry was better than that."

Jim got last minute tickets to see Sigur Ros tonight. I stayed at work.

God, I can't imagine my life without Ernesto. He is so freaking hilarious. I wish I could videotape him. Unfortunately he's a vampire so he won't show up on film. I'm gonna miss him sooooo much when I go to the MG.

Stole this from one of jimmy's friends...



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You can really tell we took i-70 here, huh?

We really should have gone to Maine on that road trip....

I finished Harry Potter 4 yesterday. WOW! I don't even know what else to say about it because it was REALLY good. I started 5 (a book I have fond memories of because of Huron and that crazy jason mcdonald). Yesterday was also, obviously, my sister's birthday. woot.

Ok, so the following people WILL BE RECEIVING BIRTHDAY GIFTS... sometime soon:

Jen
Charlie
Danny
Christy

("soon" being as soon as I get supplies and the time)

The following people will NOT be receiving birthday gifts:

Lisa
the queen of england
Dr. Dre

Ok, soooooo... I started Harry Potter 4. God, I am such a nerd. I was thinking about it in the shower today (obviously this is the only time I have to think, since the rest of it is spent in these books) and my ideas of fun include singing in a choir, rehearsing a musical, reading an adventure book, writing on this blog and PRETENDING. Almost everything I like to do involves something that isn't... real. My imagination has gone crazy. The other day ALL i wanted to do was build a fort. I was thinking about how much fun it would be for us at work to have forts in the back of the restaurant and play some kind of game. Man. That WOULD be fun. Sometimes I wish I liked to go out.... ever... I think I'd be closer to my friends.

I haven't eaten a real meal since Friday night. I really need to get on that.

Ok, Christy, I didn't know you had a birthday on the 1st of this month. Had I of known that, I would have said something along the lines of "today is Jim's cousin Christy's birthday! Yayayay!!! Happy Birthday to her! Everyone LOVES Christy!!! YAY!!!" I just added you to the list of people receiving birthday gifts when/if I get the supplies and time. All I need now are... the supplies.... and time.

I had a comment the other night from someone named John (not THE John, but A john) saying he thought a 10% tip was good. Uhhhh...no. It's expected at my restaurant, but a 10% tip is VERY BAD. 15% is acceptable, but 20% is STANDARD. 20% makes a GOOD tip... anything less is... tears.

I would have updated yesterday but I literally have spent every hour that I wasn't at work the last two days (or sleeping, or showering, etc) since I got my package from my mom, reading Harry Potter 3. I finished about an hour ago. I only got about 40 pages done before work yesterday, then halfway through before bed and about 70 pages left before work today, and then I finished it. Obviously. Now I can start the 4th book. :)

Harry Potter has been haunting my dreams (just like that pig did, last week). The night before I got the package I dreamt of some kind of Harry Potter-esque scenario and last night I did, too. My mom also sent some mega M&Ms, $20 (where'd she get $20!?!?!) and a letter... and since mom officially told me "the news" in the letter, I can actually talk about it... so no, Jen, you can't get mad, now.

So, my parents are losing their house. They can't afford the mortgage and I think they have <6 months until the sheriff comes back. I already knew, but if I WOULDN'T have known, the way my mom "told me" would have been the worst way to break something to someone, ever. "just so you know, we're losing the house..." I was never surprised... in all reality, I think I'm a little relieved, because I know my dad won't have to sleep on his office floor anymore once they are forced to move... but it's really weird to think about how I no longer have a home. I can "go home" for Christmas, but I don't know where i'd be going. I mean.... this is REALLY it. I'm REALLY on my own, now... and to everyone who thought it was a mistake for me to move, now I'm sure you can see why I really didn't have a choice to begin with. I knew this was coming... there was no use pretending it wasn't. My mom will always be ok... I'm sad for my dad because I think he probably feels like this is THE biggest let down he could ever do. We know it's not his fault. I just feel bad..

And I don't think anyone knows what is going to happen to Jen, as she has at least two years left at Akron.

Anyway.... I made a little over $55 tonight, Jim came to visit (I gave him a coupon) and I went to Justin's party for approximately 20 minutes. I made him a goodbye card. Ernesto wrote "I love you justin" and drew a bleeding heart... *I* love ernesto. And Justin.

And that Harry Potter.




EDIT: Oh, also, I did get my hair cut, my heart has been acting normally pretty much (I've determined it feels like fluttering... it's happened about once a day since the first day it was happening) and cook Hugo accidentally elbowed me in the stomach today and managed to knock the wind out of me. Coincidentally, this was the second time that happened in a week (Jim did it earlier) and next time, I'm just gonna force myself to puke on whoever does it to me. Somehow.

I only made $30 at work again tonight. Bleah. One lady tipped me $3 on $35 and was, like... IMPRESSED with her tip. She gave me a $100 bill and said "Just make the total $38.." and smiled at me. I was like "uh.... thanks." I also had one of our new hosts and her three friends at one of my tables. Her discount was $13 and the bill was $45... they tipped $8. I would have expected that if one didn't work here... but an employee tipping less than 20%?? WTF? I think that sums up my olive garden life... I can't even get 20% from people I work with, let alone anyone else... because people are cheap bastards when they eat at our restaurant.

I HAVE to get my hair cut tomorrow. I don't have enough money to do this, but I have to. It looks ridiculous. I wish my hair would stop growing so fast. At least I work night shifts tomorrow and Saturday. Hopefully I'll make more than $30...

Leona is trying to get me a stand in job on "the suite life." I don't know if it'll work (they want a boy for the job, but leona is pushing for me because I am, in her words, HILARIOUS and good at physical comedy), but that'd be pretty cool. Ed is once again going to try to get me into Urinetown. I guess the girl playing Becky Two Shoes keeps missing rehearsal and not telling anyone. *I* would have come to rehearsal. I also would have been able to carry the soprano part OR alto part. THOSE FOOLS!!!

Pedro SAID he applied at the MG. I really hope he did. I love Pedro more than anyone at work and that is saying a lot since I love everyone at work SO MUCH.

Jenna saw my rocky horror pictures and she was astounded by how different I look. She said it was probably because she mostly sees me in my work clothes (and I added "...and not a leather corset.")

Friday (technically today, I guess) is Jim's brother Charlie's 23rd birthday! Woooooo! Happy Birthday to him. I will be sending the brother birthday cards shortly. My sister's birthday is next Tuesday. She'll be 20. Wow. Weird. I remember when I was 20. It was only two years ago....

I HEART CHOCOLATE.

My head hurt most of the day so I didn't do anything besides go to orientation for the MG. We don't start training until the 27th, then we have a week off, and then we start again on the 2nd of September. I have... a lot of time to do stuff.

I just downloaded windows media player ot the computer, even though there isn't any sound. I'm sure I'll get speakers SOME DAY...

Last night Jim and I went to Target for him to buy stuff... and then to Baja Fresh. It was good. I got the first of my target.com packages today...for some reason the new shirt didn't ship, but the pants did. I'll have to look into why that is and if they're still gonna charge me for 2 day shipping. There was sooooo much stuff i want to buy at Target (I didn't, though... obviously) and I made Jim follow me around to humor me. I wish I would have lived in a dorm... ever. It would have been so much fun to decorate.

Tomorrow I work at 4 but I feel as though I want to do something before then... but we all know I don't have enough money to do things.

Ugh... my head still hurts. I should go to bed.

I just took the longest route home from work ever.

I took Beverly Glen to work today because it's faster, so I thought it'd be fun to take it home. And THEN I got to Mulholland Dr., which I've never taken before, so I thought that'd be fun to take, too. So I'm driving around Mulholland and the view is really nice and blah blah blah.. and all of a sudden I notice I'm no longer on Mulholland, and on Coldwater Canyon, on the way back DOWN the mountain... but not towards the valley, towards the city... again. And when Coldwater dumps me off on Rexford and then on Sunset... I am about a MILE from where I got on Beverly Glen from Sunset to begin with. SO... I just went home. Look at the map and my ridiculous route.

http://maps.google.com/maps?q=los+angeles,+ca&ll=34.101997,-118.400345&spn=0.059011,0.116764&hl=en

Ok, that was dumb and a dumb post. Oh well. Work was fine... I made the $20 I knew I would. Woo.

Well, I made $75 at work today which is good since I thought I'd only make $40 over the next two days. :) Hooray. I get to eat this week! Sort of...

I still can't believe I got that gift certificate. It was a like dream come true.

Ok, so, what I'm about to say is really really... odd. The other day I was asleep and having this weird dream and all of a sudden my heart started to beat so fast and hard that it woke me up. I thought it was just something that happened in the dream. Maybe it was, I dunno. Anyway, today, all day, I've just been standing there or whatever and my heart will start to beat really hard for a couple seconds and then go back to normal. It's happened like 20 times today... at least. I haven't had any hot flashes or anything but I did get dizzy ONCE. I have no idea why this is happening. I'm not stressed out, it never happened when I was actually doing anything, I EAT and stuff... I'm a 22 year old female who is not overweight and is active... it just doesn't make any sense. I should probably go to the doctor. I hope I actually have the insurance I signed up for. Maybe it'll stop, though... Or MAYBE it's some kind of weird heartburn that is... weird. And heartburn. I mean, maybe I'm exaggerating. Or not. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON.

EVERYONE is leaving the OG for the MG. That makes me very happy since I love them all so much.

Ok... I just checked online, apparently I DON'T have the health insurance that i KNOW I signed up for in November. I KNOW I did this because I made such a big deal about it. Now I'm a little mad. I get direct deposit so it's not like I get to see my paystub (especially since our managers never give me my paystub) to see if any money had been taken out. Well that sucks. Man... so I guess I'll, uh.... definitely have to sign up for some insurance with the MG. I haaaate Darden. I hope I don't die because of them.

Growl. I KNOW I did that.

Ok, whatever. I am so done with those bastards.

In other news... well, I guess there is no other news. We did try to make up a new happy birthday song, today... maybe we'll actually perform it sometime. Maybe we'll actually finish making it up sometime, too. I also scared Jenna in the parking lot. It was hilaaaaaarious.

Thanks, "?"

WHAT THE CRAP????

Someone DID send me a target gift card! I was totally kidding, but holy crap, does this come in handy! WOW! Thanks "?"! Thanks a million times!

Wow... well... that's just amazing. I was able to pick up a shift on Monday night (which means I'll be able to eat this week, haha) so tomorrow I work a split. Wow. God REALLY DOES provide! (uhh.... duh)

I've been listening to the Beatles for like the last 3 hours. If you didn't know, the Beatles are the greatest band of all time. I started to think about how much awesomeness they produced and then I cried a little. They're just so... awesome.

I went to tribe and my stomach started to hurt. And then, jeez, well, Kayla was running the show and she had people express thoughts through art on this one passage... and the only thing I could think to draw was a picture of a pig, who i named "A. Pig." I told Jim to hang it on his wall, but he won't do it. It's pretty funny. This pig has been haunting my dreams. I almost got out of bed last night because this pig came to me in a dream and I felt the strong urge to draw it. WTF. That's probably the weirdest thing I've ever said.

I just ordered my target clothes for work, so yay. Wow. I still can't believe that. Thank you again, anonymous person. That's definitely one of the most surprising, best-timed and nicest gifts ever. :)